Now

This eating disorder has turned my life upside down. Here is a list of what exactly has changed.

I used to have friends... now I rather be alone.

I never knew or paid attention to what others were eating... now I know what everyone is eating and how many calories they have eaten.

I used to smile all the time... now I am usually angry.

I was a carefree person... now I am stressed and worried constantly.

I used to enjoy doing a lot of things... now I do not enjoy doing anything.

I never once read a food label... now that is all I do.

I never used to run out of energy... now I want to sleep all the time.

My favorite pop used to be Dr. Pepper... now it is anything with zero calories.

I used to be able to eat in groups... now it scares me.

My favorite food was ice cream... now it is cereal and fruit.

I used to hate to exercise... now it is something I have to do.

I never used to care how many calories were in anything... now I know how many calories are in everything.

I used to be happy... now I am just sad.

When I went to restaurants I used to order what I was hungry for... now I order what is the "healthiest".

I used to like to cook... now I love to cook, but will not eat anything I make.

I used to have a plan for my life... now I am very confused.

The only time I thought about food was when I was hungry... now I think about food all the time.

I used to be able to take compliments... now anything anyone says means I am fat.

I used to have control of my emotions... now I have mood swings every few minutes.

My finger nails used to grow quickly... now they peel and break off.

I used to be happy with my body... now all I want to do is be skinny.

I never cared about what others thought... now I only care about what others think.

I used to never get sick... now I am sick all the time.

I used to live eating disorder free... now I fight to live every day with this eating disorder.