This Is My Reaction

So I write song lyrics every once in a while. I enjoy it because I LOVE music and writing. Perfect combo. Here is my most recent...

This Is My Reaction

Look at me, I’m a mess
You don’t even see it
You don’t have a clue

I want to start running to create an escape
But something tells me not to leave
Not to leave until I give you a shot

If I had the time to feel or to make this seem real
I would never let you walk by without me
But this is my reaction instead of all the tears

I’m saving my words for this
For everything I’m not
For everything you are

Part of me is still gone
Gone somewhere you won’t go
All I’m waiting for is the rescue

If I had the time to feel or make this seem real
I would never let you walk by without me
But this is my reaction instead of all the tears

Spare me the heartache
I’m tired of dying to feel alive
I’ve turned into a travesty
So this is my reaction

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I hate this... what do I do? I don't know what to do.

Well...Yea

Okay. Not sure where to start with this post, but I'll just start rambling on and see where I end up....

Things with the ED have not been good lately. pretty shitty actually. I don't eat really. I drink a crap ton of energy drinks and diet pop. Monsters have became my good friend. Totally worth the two dollars I fork out to buy one. And diet Dr. Pepper. Yumm. Things with the ED are not good, so that means school is obviously not good either. It sucks actually. I don't sleep and it is so hard to focus on homework. I just took my first exam of the semester and got a 67%. At least I passed. This is my last semester and I cannot let my grades slip. Uggg.

Anywho, I am working as well. Work is work. It is going well and I don't mind it. Some days are better then others, but that is with everything. When your work life is going well, you know it is a sign that everything else is suffering. This is true for me. I stay late at work to make them happy and that is less time to sleep, study, or have fun. Sooo yea.

I'm busy busy busy. But I do have a date tomorrow night with Jack. Jack Daniels to be specific. I'm well over do.

Breathe it Baby

So I sleep like maybe a couple of hours a night. While I am awake for countless hours a night I should be doing homework, but instead I am browsing the web. Or Facebook of course. BUT on my adventures in the middle of the night, I found my new current obsession. Breathe Carolina. OMG. I. Can't. Get. Enough. Check them out!

My favorite album is the newest one - Hell Is What You Make It. Top songs on the album are probably... Gone So Long, They Say You Won't Come Back, and Blackout.

I have been sooo bored with my music lately. I can only listen to Lady Gaga, Jason Aldean, and Katy Perry so much. This is a refreshing for me. Ahhhh. Breathe it baby....